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Sorry guys, no pictures on this post either. I think Boston had his fill of the camera last weekend! Kyle's mom will be coming home tomorrow afternoon! Kyle will be in Hot Springs until Saturday night so Nanny, Pawpaw, Boston and I are going to be at her house when she gets there! I know she is so excited.
There isn't much else new with us except the fact that I am trying to quit breastfeeding and it is harder than I ever expected! I have the worst case of mommy guilt about it! One moment I am glad to be "free" again and the next minute I am so sad that I am not going to have that bonding time with Boston anymore. I know the major part of it is that my hormones are all out of whack. I don't have a specific reason that I am quitting except for the fact that I am tired of pumping at work and I am ready to get rid some more weight. I feel so selffish! However, I am proud of myself for making it this far. My original goal was to breastfeed until I went back to work and then "see how it went". Then it was 3 months, then 6 months. Now at almost 7 months I just think it is time and I just need to get over it. Once the pain in my boobs and the guilt goes away, I'm sure I will feel much better. I swear I'm like a jersey cow! Don't get me wrong, I am thankful that I was able to breastfeed and for so long at that. I never expected that it would be this hard though.
My painting projects are still going strong! They are keeping me very busy on my days off, but it doesn't really feel like work b/c I enjoy doing it. I will have some photos to post soon! Enough of my thoughts for the day! Everyone have a happy Friday!
Thursday, August 27, 2009
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So how are you quitting breastfeeding?? I am the same way... it's like I want to and especially where Brody has started to bite some but then I'm going to miss it too. I think I'm ready to have my boobs back to myself..lol But I have tried giving him formula and he absolutly REFUSES.. so I began thinking I may just have to keep going until he can drink whole milk.
Oh courtney - I am RIGHT THERE WITH YOU! I have just stopped breastfeeding after 10 mos. We had a great run, but my son wasn't gaining weight like he should have at his 9 month appt. (he had no interest in day time nursing), so I knew I needed to change something. With nursing morning and bedtime, and giving him my expressed milk during the day (I pumped relentlessly from day one), my supply was dwindling. So I decided to cut it all together. My hormones were totally messed up - I noticed my son immediate and sudden attachment to my husband and that hit me real hard. I felt like I didn't matter to my son since he could now get his milk elsewhere. He would push me away when my husband got home from work and cried after him when he left for work. That broke my heart. He acted that way about me! (granted, I am a SAHM and I am never gone long enough for him to miss me). I feel better about that now. What is great? Not pumping any longer!! That feels wonderful!! To just be able to go to bed without worrying about it... bliss! I was totally contemplating writing a post about my new "post breastfeeding double A's), but am not convinced it would be appropriate :) Boy - do I have alot to say on the matter!! LOL Thanks for sharing today!
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