In a funk...

I am getting in a funk.  I know I shouldn't be, I mean its Spring, the flowers are blooming, sun is shining and warmer weather is abounding.  But with all this I can't help but think about the time I am missing out on with B.  He is growing up before my eyes and changing EVERY day!  These days he would almost rather be at daycare than at home.  He always has a smile when I open the car door in the morning, take him in and set him down to eat his breakfast.  He immediately starts be-bopping to the music.  It breaks my heart that I can't be with him during the day! He has not even wanted to go home with me on a few days last week!  That really breaks my heart.  I'm so glad to know that he loves daycare and they spoil him rotten there, but I can't help but be jealous.  By the time we get home around 6:30, it is time to have dinner, bath and a little playtime before bed.  I don't even get to enjoy the daylight savings time with him because I dont want to throw off his schedule! Weekends these days are so busy and spent making the rounds to the grandparents and they just seem to fly by!  I feel so tired and lazy on the weekends, no wonder he would rather be at daycare!
This time last year I was getting ready to return to work and dreading every minute of it. He was too small to really enjoy being outside (although he did love his stroller rides). I thought by now, it would be better.  And it is don't get me wrong, but I still have this longing and sadness to be with my baby boy more.  I truly believe this is one of the reasons why I haven't spent a night away from him yet.  Does that feeling ever subside?  I hope it doesn't b/c that would mean something is wrong with me. I just want to soak up every moment i get with him.  Call me crazy or obsessed, but I just needed to vent and have a pity party for myself. I know ya'll are tired of hearing it...