Tuesday, December 2, 2008

My "AHA" Moment

I'm beginning to wonder when my "Aha" moment (as Oprah calls it) will come. I am well into my 7th month of pregnancy, I can feel him move all the time, we are buying things for him and having baby showers, but it still seems so surreal! In a matter of 2 months I will have a baby! I cannot seem to wrap my mind around the fact that there is a growing little person inside me! I feel like there is so much stuff we still need or do we really need it? (diaper genie, a plethora of different bottles, pacifiers, high chair, bouncers, etc) Everyone is telling me different and I hate to have a bunch of stuff that we won't use!
I keep wondering what he will look like, who he will act like, how our dogs will adapt, etc. Am I capable of being a full time working mother with 2 dogs and a husband that travels a lot? Will I be the overprotective mom or be the easy going mom? It is all very overwhelming, not to mention the comments that keep coming from people about "how life is about to change". Really? Like we didn't realize that before? This is something we have both wanted for so long. Maybe we aren't quite as prepared as we should be, but who really is? I honestly don't see how my mother did it all by herself. I know if she can do it by herself then surely we can do it with the help of our family and friends. But as it comes down to the wire, the time is passing so fast and i don' t want to look back and regret that i didn't take time to realize the miracle that is happening in our lives...

2 comments:

Stephanie said...

wow...i went through the same exact thing...and now that he is here, it is still surreal. i'm always saying to chad that I can't believe he is really here. when boston gets here, everything will come to you so naturally. it will all be perfect! even when he first arrives and he's up every couple of hours wanting to eat and crying for what seems like no reason. and all you want to do is sleep. perfect. :) and I still have so many things in packages that I never used and i can't take them back either cause the return date as already expired. grrrrr

Amanda said...

You are going to be a wonderful mother. Don't listen to anyone! You will figure it all out as you go along. You won't need half the crap you get at showers and Stephanie is right it will just pile up. It will be a beautiful mess. All of it. I can't wait to meet him!