It Starting to Feel Real!

Since we had our last doctor's appt. on Monday and got to see our baby on the ultrasound, it finally feels real to me! I haven't felt any different since I have been pregnant (which is good I guess) but I was starting to get disappointed that I wasn't connecting with what was growing in my body! How things have changed! We are starting to call him by name and I am starting to pay more attention so that I make sure and notice everytime he moves or kicks. I have even noticed a change in Kyle since the appointment. He is going to be the best husband and father!
Don't get me wrong, I still feel like its a dream sometimes and I can't believe I am halfway through the pregnancy already!
After the appt. I finally felt comfortable going to look for maternity clothes. I bought my first pair of maternity pants yesterday! They are so comfortable, still a little big though. I have been getting by with my "fat" pants and wearing the empire tops; but my "fat" pants are beginning to be uncomfortable. I also bought Boston something I think Kyle will be very excited about! It should be here on Friday :)
I guess I have been procrastinating this whole pregnancy thing because i have been so worried that something will go wrong. Being the Debbie Downer that I am; I guess I have not allowed myself to get attached until now. I am such a pessimist! I am trying to remember that it is in God's hands and he will protect us, but it is a constant struggle! I am so blessed beyond belief!